I underestimated the driving force of Love to me when I found myself,
Pushing the limits to run past my own stamina to hit the ends of East Coast Park yesterday to chase after a particular sickly sister, who ran alone, hitting way past 10km and having bad muscle aches now
I underestimated what Love can do to me, when I found myself,
Doing things that I would never imagine myself doing, like running like the wind in my flip flops (Sky Train not working la!:S) from Changi Terminal 2 to Terminal 1 after fetching a bro to send another bro off to his trip, to catch him before he leaves...
I underestimated the magnitude of Love that my parents had for me when
I saw that they always kept food for me even when I reach home late at night, and my dad will ALWAYS wait up for me, it really gives a warm fuzzy feeling all at once...
I underestimate the power of Love that can do to my soul when,
It propels me to pray, to worry, to shed tears, to simply think about the people I care for, to go to that person in need even when I am dead tired...
I underestimate what motivating force that Love has on me, when
I picked up playing the violin again after a span of 12 years at age 24, I made myself learn the guitar at age 23 all in a bid to learn to worship God better, to learn to adore God better,to learn to love God better...
I underestimate the sweetness of God's Love when,
In more ways than one, He has watched over me in my down times, He has blessed me with small rewards to let me know that He is still there, He healed me of my hurts and pain, He healed me of my sickness, He speaks to me and is the one I hold on to!
I underestimated the ultimate source of Love when,
I finally realised how much Christ loves us and died for our sins, the ugliness of my sins, my petty "crimes" that I have committed, the foul words that I have spoken, the evil thoughts that I have kept in my mind..WOW blows my mind everytime...I could only ask for His continuous Grace on me...
What has Love propelled you to do today? :)
Monday, October 30, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
NOSTALGIA TIME! 5 years mark in HOPE!
Five Years have past...I have rededicated my life to join a church, after having been a runaway sheep for years... It's been FIVE years with HOPE! *drum roll*
Been through 5 years of ministry in Hope, many laughter and of course tears...At the end of it all, you really appreciate those who have seen through with you all these years...Unearthed some really old pics of my fellow brothers and sisters (again!)...had a good laugh at some of them! So be nice to me or they would be slowly released to the world! (*evil laughter)...nah, I love God and His people too!
Do reminisce with me for those who have walked with me ...*pat on the back*!
Let's look forward to many more years to come eh?
Love you all!
Been through 5 years of ministry in Hope, many laughter and of course tears...At the end of it all, you really appreciate those who have seen through with you all these years...Unearthed some really old pics of my fellow brothers and sisters (again!)...had a good laugh at some of them! So be nice to me or they would be slowly released to the world! (*evil laughter)...nah, I love God and His people too!
Do reminisce with me for those who have walked with me ...*pat on the back*!
Let's look forward to many more years to come eh?
Love you all!
Monday, October 23, 2006
The Year of testing
Ever been through a year or so, months on end that you feel that you are being tested through and through? Everytime I was weighed down by the events that were happening to me, the gruelling of running the Christian race is never easy, I really want to cry. I want to cry real bad.
Poy mentioned that CG night, "Wah, being a Christian is not easy ah!" I told Jeannie also, "When heavy people fall, the impact on the fall on them is very big."
I meant literally of course, but when I thought back of the statements made..WOW something struck.
It's like months on end I seem to be going through things, struggling in between jobs, finances stretched, emotions tested through and through and stress from work and studies. Getting a bit inward looking I know, but all these are like burdens that weighed on your back, the wounds which cut your skin left scars and scratches. You still have remnants of it on your body after each saga.
I am getting "heavier" by all these, and I don't wanna fall. Really, its scary just to even think about it. The impact on yourself would be too great. Really need to daily release all these burdens to God! Of course there are tons of people worse off than me...but this is not a pity party....I ask myself,"How do I last the race?" Throwing in the towel is easy but its like being an escapist. A recent spate of events that happened to me can really make my hair turn grey. I was caught off guard, I wasn't prepared for this, Lord how do handle this? Stress levels hit an all time high, I was talking gibberish, my hands are shaking, I could not really think straight. What I thought I had overcome again, resurfaced in a totally new incident, GOd spoke to me, THAT is my stronghold.
Been reading Acts 24-26 about Paul being brought to trial before Felix, Fetus and the Caesar. He was tested, gruelling interrogations, at one point he could have got off the whole thing with a bribe but he chose to hang on. Two years plus of imprisonment and trial after trial...got me thinking, Will I succumb when tempted or deprived of something which is my stronghold? (hahah think I can hear a certain policeman's voice,"YOU MUST WEEN OFF COFFEE!")
Really tired, even as I write this, tears are welling in my eyes...Read this passage today and am greatly encouraged, made me wanna do something about the condition of my heart,
"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith - of greater worth than gold, which perished even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honour when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Though you have not seen Him, you love Him and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls"
1 Peter 1:6-9
I am hanging on to the hope cos Jesus say so, I need to rejoice in what I am going through cos I know that at the end of it, I will receive the GOAL, God's divine and wonderful GOAL for me in my life. I am praying for myself to be rejoicing to be tested in this manner, cos these are the times that my faith is stretched even more, its like you step into something you are absolutely afraid of but you need to go through it with faith. Sometimes, you need to do it, not just for yourself, but for the people around you, for the people that really matters to you, for GOD!
Hang on Rac!
Poy mentioned that CG night, "Wah, being a Christian is not easy ah!" I told Jeannie also, "When heavy people fall, the impact on the fall on them is very big."
I meant literally of course, but when I thought back of the statements made..WOW something struck.
It's like months on end I seem to be going through things, struggling in between jobs, finances stretched, emotions tested through and through and stress from work and studies. Getting a bit inward looking I know, but all these are like burdens that weighed on your back, the wounds which cut your skin left scars and scratches. You still have remnants of it on your body after each saga.
I am getting "heavier" by all these, and I don't wanna fall. Really, its scary just to even think about it. The impact on yourself would be too great. Really need to daily release all these burdens to God! Of course there are tons of people worse off than me...but this is not a pity party....I ask myself,"How do I last the race?" Throwing in the towel is easy but its like being an escapist. A recent spate of events that happened to me can really make my hair turn grey. I was caught off guard, I wasn't prepared for this, Lord how do handle this? Stress levels hit an all time high, I was talking gibberish, my hands are shaking, I could not really think straight. What I thought I had overcome again, resurfaced in a totally new incident, GOd spoke to me, THAT is my stronghold.
Been reading Acts 24-26 about Paul being brought to trial before Felix, Fetus and the Caesar. He was tested, gruelling interrogations, at one point he could have got off the whole thing with a bribe but he chose to hang on. Two years plus of imprisonment and trial after trial...got me thinking, Will I succumb when tempted or deprived of something which is my stronghold? (hahah think I can hear a certain policeman's voice,"YOU MUST WEEN OFF COFFEE!")
Really tired, even as I write this, tears are welling in my eyes...Read this passage today and am greatly encouraged, made me wanna do something about the condition of my heart,
"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith - of greater worth than gold, which perished even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honour when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Though you have not seen Him, you love Him and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls"
1 Peter 1:6-9
I am hanging on to the hope cos Jesus say so, I need to rejoice in what I am going through cos I know that at the end of it, I will receive the GOAL, God's divine and wonderful GOAL for me in my life. I am praying for myself to be rejoicing to be tested in this manner, cos these are the times that my faith is stretched even more, its like you step into something you are absolutely afraid of but you need to go through it with faith. Sometimes, you need to do it, not just for yourself, but for the people around you, for the people that really matters to you, for GOD!
Hang on Rac!
Monday, October 16, 2006
What I wanted to be when I grow up...
When I was growing up I had many dreams and aspirations.
Come to think of it, some of them are so farnie!!
I can remember during my Primary 1 or 2 days when the teacher would tell us to draw something that we wanted to be when we grow up..it was like the most asked question that my parents would coax me into answering day in and day out...
I remember the first time I drew a pic of my dream career, can you believe it I wanted to be a - POLICEMAN! I remember vividly striding into the Police Post one fine day with my Papa cos he wanted to report a minor accident with his car, think I was 6 or 7, I boldly told the PC in charge that, "Uncle, I want to be a POLICEMAN!" (I spot super short hair and my dad dressed me up like a boy) He bent down and talked to me like a adult to a child would and went,"You sure you want to be a Policeman? You dare to touch DEAD BODY?" not knowing what I was in for, I answered, "YES!"
Years later, i knew I would stray for this childhood ambition, after watching too much Crime Watch and saw all the horrible murders, and yes..seeing for myself TWO DBs! Blood splattered at the void deck from my block when some distressed ppl chose to commit suicide there..
Okay too much info, my next farnie ambition was to be a SIA girl! Always tell myself that I am tall enough and I shall apply to be a "Singapore girl" hee hee...cannot lor, me too "chor lor"...But was thinking, how nice it would be to fly all over the world and see places!
Then, I wanted to be an engineer, I struggled in my studies thru my engineer course, it was only until the final year did I finally found what I like about my studies, the Environmental Engineering part...:) Water treatment, Wastewater research, remembering the lab days when I ran samples after samples of "sh*t water". There was this prof in uni who inspired me a lot into this field, his name is Prof Appan. He made me so passionate about my research that I wanted to get a job into it after I grad, but sad to say, think the path that God has chosen for me was to be so different...
Remember a particular beer advertisement sometime back I think the guy in it goes,"My father was an engineer, and so was my father's father, But I am someone different..."
I can quote, "My father is an teacher and so is my mother, I am going to be one and so is my youngest sister!" Self fulfilling prophecy...:P These days, I am glad that the Lord has led me to where I am...:)
But there's this one HUGE dream since sec days till my early uni days on what I really wanted to be...I wanted to be a singer!! I love singing and love to add my own versions to any songs that I came across in the past. I would sing in the shower, I would sing on the way home, I would make up a song with any word that my friend's conversations end with, sometimes i write my own songs..I joined singing competitions in school, Hall Sing and strum group, Choir and really love KTV!!
Unearthed this next video of me and my sis Kerri when I was searching for a lost CD.. FIVE YEARS ago in Sep 2001 where she came to my hall to sing with me...I was not really part of HOPE yet, being a fringe member...wahaha...check out the geeky hairstyle and my shot at "stardom"!! Enjoy!
Come to think of it, some of them are so farnie!!
I can remember during my Primary 1 or 2 days when the teacher would tell us to draw something that we wanted to be when we grow up..it was like the most asked question that my parents would coax me into answering day in and day out...
I remember the first time I drew a pic of my dream career, can you believe it I wanted to be a - POLICEMAN! I remember vividly striding into the Police Post one fine day with my Papa cos he wanted to report a minor accident with his car, think I was 6 or 7, I boldly told the PC in charge that, "Uncle, I want to be a POLICEMAN!" (I spot super short hair and my dad dressed me up like a boy) He bent down and talked to me like a adult to a child would and went,"You sure you want to be a Policeman? You dare to touch DEAD BODY?" not knowing what I was in for, I answered, "YES!"
Years later, i knew I would stray for this childhood ambition, after watching too much Crime Watch and saw all the horrible murders, and yes..seeing for myself TWO DBs! Blood splattered at the void deck from my block when some distressed ppl chose to commit suicide there..
Okay too much info, my next farnie ambition was to be a SIA girl! Always tell myself that I am tall enough and I shall apply to be a "Singapore girl" hee hee...cannot lor, me too "chor lor"...But was thinking, how nice it would be to fly all over the world and see places!
Then, I wanted to be an engineer, I struggled in my studies thru my engineer course, it was only until the final year did I finally found what I like about my studies, the Environmental Engineering part...:) Water treatment, Wastewater research, remembering the lab days when I ran samples after samples of "sh*t water". There was this prof in uni who inspired me a lot into this field, his name is Prof Appan. He made me so passionate about my research that I wanted to get a job into it after I grad, but sad to say, think the path that God has chosen for me was to be so different...
Remember a particular beer advertisement sometime back I think the guy in it goes,"My father was an engineer, and so was my father's father, But I am someone different..."
I can quote, "My father is an teacher and so is my mother, I am going to be one and so is my youngest sister!" Self fulfilling prophecy...:P These days, I am glad that the Lord has led me to where I am...:)
But there's this one HUGE dream since sec days till my early uni days on what I really wanted to be...I wanted to be a singer!! I love singing and love to add my own versions to any songs that I came across in the past. I would sing in the shower, I would sing on the way home, I would make up a song with any word that my friend's conversations end with, sometimes i write my own songs..I joined singing competitions in school, Hall Sing and strum group, Choir and really love KTV!!
Unearthed this next video of me and my sis Kerri when I was searching for a lost CD.. FIVE YEARS ago in Sep 2001 where she came to my hall to sing with me...I was not really part of HOPE yet, being a fringe member...wahaha...check out the geeky hairstyle and my shot at "stardom"!! Enjoy!
Friday, October 13, 2006
Weird dreams...waking up to reality
Been encountering weird dreams earlier this week, distinctly heard a voice speaking into the picture and have seen clearly the face of a certain leader in the church...
Why this dream God? Has it manifested itself from what I have been constantly pondering in my mind to become in my dreams? Chinese say, "Ye4 chang2 mong4 duo1"
Woke up with a smile actually but at the same time feeling weird all over...
It's a very surreal feeling when sometimes what you dream come to pass and you have that "deja vu" feeling and you pray that its something that God wants to speak to you about. But that series of dreams...too abstract..something I dun quite understand... but I do know that the Lord is in charge of the situation. Somehow deep in my heart I hope and pray for that to happen...:P
The reality is not so easy, hardly so sweet as the dream but we have the LORD! :D
NIE is really tough, I witnessed colleagues breaking down under the stress, going "gila" in lectures, and simply talking gibberish when they try to talk to you. Some are mothers, others are fathers, breadwinners of the family, worrying over their child's PSLE and if someone has fallen sick of the family, anxiety and stress started to plaster all over the person's face. Recent spate of "throwing the letter of resignation" has occurred in the heat of assignments.
I wonder, studying in a high-strung environment, a distinctive college they call it, only to come out into another stress oven in the school environment. I question myself more and more, God to convict me, God to see me through this stress, Lord Jesus to help me bask in His love and glory to see me through. Hard questions everyday, do I really want to go through all these?
Then, I remembered my kids, my dear boys from that white-washed school in Bartley Rd, i remember every single face, every single friend that touched my heart in that school. Every prayer and every situation that I walked with the Lord in that little school. I was encouraged. I want to go back there. I miss them...
Dedicated to my little "dears"...
I'd know I'll Always ... by Rachel Tham
I'd know I'll always walk with a little skip in my gait
When I remember your smile upon me at the gate
I'd know I'll always dream of going back to the same place,
When I seem to retrace every incident back to where it began.
I'd know I'll always melt in my heart,
When I remember your voice, your face, your sweet sweet spirit,
I'd know I'll always ring in my ears,
With the sounds of your singing and jokes,
I'd know I'll always imagine being with you,
When I always look beside me to remember the times you walk with me,
I'd know I'll always pray for you,
Pray that each day with the Lord would be full of joy!
I'd know I'll always miss you, think of you, love you ALL.....
When my lips curl up when I talk about you,
I'd know I'll always cherish and wish you all the best
In all that you are ever going to do...
I'd know I'll always.....like you!
Why this dream God? Has it manifested itself from what I have been constantly pondering in my mind to become in my dreams? Chinese say, "Ye4 chang2 mong4 duo1"
Woke up with a smile actually but at the same time feeling weird all over...
It's a very surreal feeling when sometimes what you dream come to pass and you have that "deja vu" feeling and you pray that its something that God wants to speak to you about. But that series of dreams...too abstract..something I dun quite understand... but I do know that the Lord is in charge of the situation. Somehow deep in my heart I hope and pray for that to happen...:P
The reality is not so easy, hardly so sweet as the dream but we have the LORD! :D
NIE is really tough, I witnessed colleagues breaking down under the stress, going "gila" in lectures, and simply talking gibberish when they try to talk to you. Some are mothers, others are fathers, breadwinners of the family, worrying over their child's PSLE and if someone has fallen sick of the family, anxiety and stress started to plaster all over the person's face. Recent spate of "throwing the letter of resignation" has occurred in the heat of assignments.
I wonder, studying in a high-strung environment, a distinctive college they call it, only to come out into another stress oven in the school environment. I question myself more and more, God to convict me, God to see me through this stress, Lord Jesus to help me bask in His love and glory to see me through. Hard questions everyday, do I really want to go through all these?
Then, I remembered my kids, my dear boys from that white-washed school in Bartley Rd, i remember every single face, every single friend that touched my heart in that school. Every prayer and every situation that I walked with the Lord in that little school. I was encouraged. I want to go back there. I miss them...
Dedicated to my little "dears"...
I'd know I'll Always ... by Rachel Tham
I'd know I'll always walk with a little skip in my gait
When I remember your smile upon me at the gate
I'd know I'll always dream of going back to the same place,
When I seem to retrace every incident back to where it began.
I'd know I'll always melt in my heart,
When I remember your voice, your face, your sweet sweet spirit,
I'd know I'll always ring in my ears,
With the sounds of your singing and jokes,
I'd know I'll always imagine being with you,
When I always look beside me to remember the times you walk with me,
I'd know I'll always pray for you,
Pray that each day with the Lord would be full of joy!
I'd know I'll always miss you, think of you, love you ALL.....
When my lips curl up when I talk about you,
I'd know I'll always cherish and wish you all the best
In all that you are ever going to do...
I'd know I'll always.....like you!
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
Woke up from a deep deep sleep...
Ever experienced this before, yourself working on an assignment or project continuously for a few days, not eating much or sleeping only at most 3 hours a day?
Then when you are finally done, you presented your stuff and you are like so so drained?
This is what just happened to me...I think the total number of hours I clocked this week on sleep is really less than 48 hours. So drained...I had my English presentation today, its one where each pair of teacher trainees will take over the tutor's role and give basically a lesson. We are to teach the class a particular topic. All research work and materials we are to collate ourselves and it takes up 20% of our curriculum
Me and my partner talked for a cool 2 hours, showing videos and giving our presentation. This is really not easy.. can imagine now how the Pastors talked on stage for so long... on one hand you have to engage your audience, another hand you have to explain and present your point across in a logical manner.
The moment my presentation ended at 230pm today...I don't know what happened after that.
I must have been living in a state of semi-conscious mind, i staggered to my last tutorial class of the day, slept through a good part of it, I remembered the previous day I had gone without food since morning working on the assignment..
I slept in my car pool.. and when i reached home I told my Auntie not to wake me up for dinner and fell into a deep deep sleep only to wake up at 12am to realise that the world has spun 5 and half hours. Not exactly feeling the sense of loss cos got more things coming up.
I had presented on teaching a particular text genre on expositions to children and on expanding the children's imagination by teaching them to write argumentative essays. Have attached the following video:
Some background, The teacher had told the kids to draw whatever comes to their mind. And this kid just kept on colouring everything black.A frightening scene for her.. Appalled the teacher sought the parent's help, psychiatrists' help...
The poor kid went into an asylum until the teacher discovered a trait of the kid...
Watch to the end...blew my mind on this one...in Japanese
Then when you are finally done, you presented your stuff and you are like so so drained?
This is what just happened to me...I think the total number of hours I clocked this week on sleep is really less than 48 hours. So drained...I had my English presentation today, its one where each pair of teacher trainees will take over the tutor's role and give basically a lesson. We are to teach the class a particular topic. All research work and materials we are to collate ourselves and it takes up 20% of our curriculum
Me and my partner talked for a cool 2 hours, showing videos and giving our presentation. This is really not easy.. can imagine now how the Pastors talked on stage for so long... on one hand you have to engage your audience, another hand you have to explain and present your point across in a logical manner.
The moment my presentation ended at 230pm today...I don't know what happened after that.
I must have been living in a state of semi-conscious mind, i staggered to my last tutorial class of the day, slept through a good part of it, I remembered the previous day I had gone without food since morning working on the assignment..
I slept in my car pool.. and when i reached home I told my Auntie not to wake me up for dinner and fell into a deep deep sleep only to wake up at 12am to realise that the world has spun 5 and half hours. Not exactly feeling the sense of loss cos got more things coming up.
I had presented on teaching a particular text genre on expositions to children and on expanding the children's imagination by teaching them to write argumentative essays. Have attached the following video:
Some background, The teacher had told the kids to draw whatever comes to their mind. And this kid just kept on colouring everything black.A frightening scene for her.. Appalled the teacher sought the parent's help, psychiatrists' help...
The poor kid went into an asylum until the teacher discovered a trait of the kid...
Watch to the end...blew my mind on this one...in Japanese
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Something that I just learnt and re-learnt
2 Corinthians 5:20
"We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making His appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God."
Just read a short but powerful and inspiring blog entry by Zhu Zhu and reaffirmed the perspective of God once again in my life.
What does it mean to be an ambassador for Christ? Means our lives, wholly representing Him and live out in His will through His grace and guidance.
How many times have God spoken to me and I have not taken Him at His Word? Saying, "Yes, Lord! Here I am, send me!" to simply to trust, to carry out and to just obey...
I let it slip too many times, Be reconciled to God, bridging this gap, drawing Him closer once again...
"We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making His appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God."
Just read a short but powerful and inspiring blog entry by Zhu Zhu and reaffirmed the perspective of God once again in my life.
What does it mean to be an ambassador for Christ? Means our lives, wholly representing Him and live out in His will through His grace and guidance.
How many times have God spoken to me and I have not taken Him at His Word? Saying, "Yes, Lord! Here I am, send me!" to simply to trust, to carry out and to just obey...
I let it slip too many times, Be reconciled to God, bridging this gap, drawing Him closer once again...
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Taking a break from Mad Rush of 12 assignments...
Yesh, this is crazy, i am sleep deprived, i have bad skin and yesh i look bad...
Study is tough and I am hanging on to God for dear life..
Today we had an rather interesting English class on rewriting sentences using better discriptive language. I am sure you all have seen it in the pri school English papers on joining two sentences together....
Well, some of the guys in the class managed to churn out really beautiful sentences, sure bet that they write really romantic love letter to their wives...:P
Okay, here are some sentences :
Question 1: The wind blew. John got cold.
Example: The icy wind blew strongly, making John feel like he was in a freezer.
Question 2: Carrie stood at the bus-stop. She was upset.
Rewriting 1: Carrie waited nervously at the bus-stop, sobbing quietly to herself.
Rachel's version: As she stood all alone at the bus-stop, the loneliness in Carrie's heart was not doing anything to stop tears from falling down her cheeks.
Question 3: The athlete ran. He won the race.
Rewriting 1: (This one takes the cake, by my classmate)The super-human athlete raced like lightning across the finishing line, breaking the ribbon in a flourish.
Question 4: She drank her coffee. She was thinking.
Rachel's version: Sipping her morning cuppa, she contemplated the day's events.
Question 5: Peter looked at the bully. He did not like him.
Rewriting 1: (another winner from the same guy) Peter stared swords and daggers at the very personification of evil at the corner, wishing the building will fall and crush him.
Rachel's version: Peter growled at the boy at the corner, the very presence of him made his hair stand on end.
Question 6: Wendy walked into the room. It was hot.
Rachel's version: Wendy walked into what seemed like a furnace of a room, with beads of perspiration plastered to the shirt on her back.
Now you try!
Question 7: Bruno was a dog. He barked at strangers.
Question 8: It rained all day. I thought it wouldn't stop.
Study is tough and I am hanging on to God for dear life..
Today we had an rather interesting English class on rewriting sentences using better discriptive language. I am sure you all have seen it in the pri school English papers on joining two sentences together....
Well, some of the guys in the class managed to churn out really beautiful sentences, sure bet that they write really romantic love letter to their wives...:P
Okay, here are some sentences :
Question 1: The wind blew. John got cold.
Example: The icy wind blew strongly, making John feel like he was in a freezer.
Question 2: Carrie stood at the bus-stop. She was upset.
Rewriting 1: Carrie waited nervously at the bus-stop, sobbing quietly to herself.
Rachel's version: As she stood all alone at the bus-stop, the loneliness in Carrie's heart was not doing anything to stop tears from falling down her cheeks.
Question 3: The athlete ran. He won the race.
Rewriting 1: (This one takes the cake, by my classmate)The super-human athlete raced like lightning across the finishing line, breaking the ribbon in a flourish.
Question 4: She drank her coffee. She was thinking.
Rachel's version: Sipping her morning cuppa, she contemplated the day's events.
Question 5: Peter looked at the bully. He did not like him.
Rewriting 1: (another winner from the same guy) Peter stared swords and daggers at the very personification of evil at the corner, wishing the building will fall and crush him.
Rachel's version: Peter growled at the boy at the corner, the very presence of him made his hair stand on end.
Question 6: Wendy walked into the room. It was hot.
Rachel's version: Wendy walked into what seemed like a furnace of a room, with beads of perspiration plastered to the shirt on her back.
Now you try!
Question 7: Bruno was a dog. He barked at strangers.
Question 8: It rained all day. I thought it wouldn't stop.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
My baby's hurting!
It's been close to 3 weeks that my baby sis has torn her ligament in her leg.
Swells, bruising, cast, crutches and all.
It's so traumatising for her in the midst of it all, where we all rushed to see her that morning and brought her to A & E of NUH.
"Torn ligament, with the ankle bone jutting out", declared the doctor.
I was so thankful that we din heed my dad's advice to immediately bring her to the Chinese sinseh, cos the moment me and my mum saw the foot, it's more than just a normal sprain...
Today, I helped her put the bandage onto her foot after my mum applied "Zheng4 Gu2 Shui3" after what was like the umpteenth time and it has a very pungent smell.
She winced.
Pain indescribable. My heart ached.
I bandaged for her and actually stole a prayer for her when my mum finally retreated to the room.
Tears rolled down her cheeks. Was it pain from the massaging of the foot or could there be a faintest hint that she was touched by the prayer?
It really hurts when someone you really love and care for break down in tears in front of you. I feel like crying with her.
God, only You know and You heal. Please restore her back to health, straighten her ankle and let her walk again. I pray for her that she would not go through the experience of operating on her foot and she would be able to do sports again. I hope and I pray that she would be close to Christ through this period of time. Help my baby, O Lord! Amen!
Swells, bruising, cast, crutches and all.
It's so traumatising for her in the midst of it all, where we all rushed to see her that morning and brought her to A & E of NUH.
"Torn ligament, with the ankle bone jutting out", declared the doctor.
I was so thankful that we din heed my dad's advice to immediately bring her to the Chinese sinseh, cos the moment me and my mum saw the foot, it's more than just a normal sprain...
Today, I helped her put the bandage onto her foot after my mum applied "Zheng4 Gu2 Shui3" after what was like the umpteenth time and it has a very pungent smell.
She winced.
Pain indescribable. My heart ached.
I bandaged for her and actually stole a prayer for her when my mum finally retreated to the room.
Tears rolled down her cheeks. Was it pain from the massaging of the foot or could there be a faintest hint that she was touched by the prayer?
It really hurts when someone you really love and care for break down in tears in front of you. I feel like crying with her.
God, only You know and You heal. Please restore her back to health, straighten her ankle and let her walk again. I pray for her that she would not go through the experience of operating on her foot and she would be able to do sports again. I hope and I pray that she would be close to Christ through this period of time. Help my baby, O Lord! Amen!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Cry Out To Jesus by THIRD DAY
This is a rather poignant video...am touched by the lyrics and also the song.
One of popular contemporary Christian Rock Bands ...:P
Cry Out To Jesus - Third Day (2005)
To everyone who's lost someone they love
long before it was their time.
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye.
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
keepin' you back from your life.
You believe that there's nothing
and there is no one who can make it right.
Chorus:
There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.
Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.
For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love.
and they've done all they can to make it right again
still it's not enough.
For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
you try to give up but you come back again.
Just remember that you're not alone
in your shame and your suffering.
There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.
Cry out to Jesus.
When you're lonely and it feels like the whole world is falling on you
you just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus.
To the widow who suffers from being alone,
wipin' the tears from her eyes.
For the children around the world without a home,
say a prayer tonight.
Chorus (Repeat 2 times)
Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.
Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.
One of popular contemporary Christian Rock Bands ...:P
Cry Out To Jesus - Third Day (2005)
To everyone who's lost someone they love
long before it was their time.
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye.
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
keepin' you back from your life.
You believe that there's nothing
and there is no one who can make it right.
Chorus:
There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.
Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.
For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love.
and they've done all they can to make it right again
still it's not enough.
For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
you try to give up but you come back again.
Just remember that you're not alone
in your shame and your suffering.
There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.
Cry out to Jesus.
When you're lonely and it feels like the whole world is falling on you
you just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus.
To the widow who suffers from being alone,
wipin' the tears from her eyes.
For the children around the world without a home,
say a prayer tonight.
Chorus (Repeat 2 times)
Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.
Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.
Monday, September 25, 2006
2 Milestones in Life
This week is a week of milestones for me..
Milestone 1: I completed running 5km much faster now.
On Saturday, I actually woke up at 545am to run! Inspired by the enthusiasm of my sheep, she was very very keen to practise running the Stan Chart Run really early in the morning! Poy and Ah Cheng both had something on at 11am so Zhu Zhu came up with the idea of running at 7am at the River Valley Ministry House!
I was so surprised myself that I can drag myself up. Previous night, I had returned home late after watching Forbidden City with Irene..It's superb, shall blog about it another time.
Woke up and dragged myself to River Valley having reached Sengkang Station at 630am. After a short warm up and stretching we were off, cutting through Chatsworth Road, through to past all the Embassies and Gleneagles Hospital and then Botanic Gardens!
The morning air was so fresh, really could feel my whole body more at ease when I ran in the morning then evening. Not albeit muscle and knee pains after that...:(
Botanical Gardens was refreshing, some crowds of people are already there, walking their dogs, and practising Tai Chi and swordplay...;P there was even a Chinese Christian Choir doing warm-ups with their voices...
Phew am so tired after the run that I plonked down and napped on the couch in the Ministry House..:P
Milestone 2: Passed my Violin Grade 6 Exam with a Merit!
I cannot believe it! It's really God's grace again! Throughout the 11 months preparation, I was even more broke than last time, spent much more money in fact about 3.5K in total! God showed me in more ways than one, His love manifested through many people:
First, I managed to get Geo to help me with the Aural preparation, to teach me how to sing and manage all the "tau geh" on sight.
I have to thank my dear friend Nizam!! He managed to grabbed hold of secret lock codes for me to enter into free sound proof studios complete with an upright Yamaha piano in each of them! It's exhorbitant to rent studios and they were charged at 40 per hour. I nearly cried when i heard the pricing...
My dearest pianist Salome reduced her hiring fees for me so that I could save on all the expenses, and even kindly provided for me her church premises, her house for me to practice on the violin...:P
God is so gracious! She had went on a conference in Taiwan and had come back earlier especially for me! Can you imagine how touched I was? Was super touched...Despite the break in training... My boo boo in the actual exam, I trembled even much more than I did last year and could not even play my scales properly!! I remembered vividly that I even turned off the air con cos it was blowing my music sheets all over the place....EVERY SINGLE MISTAKE COULD BE HEARD CLEARLY :P
I think I pity the British examiner, in a hot and stuffy room without aircon, in long sleeves and tie, okay what's worse? i) Being STUCK with me. What's worst for him? ii) Being stuck with my awful violin playing. What's really torturing him at that time? iii) I was the last candidate in that time slot that ate into his precious lunch time...:P Phewwweeee!
I thank God for being with me every step of the way...I shall press on to complete my training!
I would also like to thank every single one of my friends, bros and sis who prayed for me and with me for this exam! You all make a difference! :D
Milestone 1: I completed running 5km much faster now.
On Saturday, I actually woke up at 545am to run! Inspired by the enthusiasm of my sheep, she was very very keen to practise running the Stan Chart Run really early in the morning! Poy and Ah Cheng both had something on at 11am so Zhu Zhu came up with the idea of running at 7am at the River Valley Ministry House!
I was so surprised myself that I can drag myself up. Previous night, I had returned home late after watching Forbidden City with Irene..It's superb, shall blog about it another time.
Woke up and dragged myself to River Valley having reached Sengkang Station at 630am. After a short warm up and stretching we were off, cutting through Chatsworth Road, through to past all the Embassies and Gleneagles Hospital and then Botanic Gardens!
The morning air was so fresh, really could feel my whole body more at ease when I ran in the morning then evening. Not albeit muscle and knee pains after that...:(
Botanical Gardens was refreshing, some crowds of people are already there, walking their dogs, and practising Tai Chi and swordplay...;P there was even a Chinese Christian Choir doing warm-ups with their voices...
Phew am so tired after the run that I plonked down and napped on the couch in the Ministry House..:P
Milestone 2: Passed my Violin Grade 6 Exam with a Merit!
I cannot believe it! It's really God's grace again! Throughout the 11 months preparation, I was even more broke than last time, spent much more money in fact about 3.5K in total! God showed me in more ways than one, His love manifested through many people:
First, I managed to get Geo to help me with the Aural preparation, to teach me how to sing and manage all the "tau geh" on sight.
I have to thank my dear friend Nizam!! He managed to grabbed hold of secret lock codes for me to enter into free sound proof studios complete with an upright Yamaha piano in each of them! It's exhorbitant to rent studios and they were charged at 40 per hour. I nearly cried when i heard the pricing...
My dearest pianist Salome reduced her hiring fees for me so that I could save on all the expenses, and even kindly provided for me her church premises, her house for me to practice on the violin...:P
God is so gracious! She had went on a conference in Taiwan and had come back earlier especially for me! Can you imagine how touched I was? Was super touched...Despite the break in training... My boo boo in the actual exam, I trembled even much more than I did last year and could not even play my scales properly!! I remembered vividly that I even turned off the air con cos it was blowing my music sheets all over the place....EVERY SINGLE MISTAKE COULD BE HEARD CLEARLY :P
I think I pity the British examiner, in a hot and stuffy room without aircon, in long sleeves and tie, okay what's worse? i) Being STUCK with me. What's worst for him? ii) Being stuck with my awful violin playing. What's really torturing him at that time? iii) I was the last candidate in that time slot that ate into his precious lunch time...:P Phewwweeee!
I thank God for being with me every step of the way...I shall press on to complete my training!
I would also like to thank every single one of my friends, bros and sis who prayed for me and with me for this exam! You all make a difference! :D
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Hope Church 15th Anniversary! 16th Sep 2006
Me and Mingzhu
The elusive misty machine that caused us to splutter and cough whenever it puts out smoke, totally engulfing us in smoke and blurring our vision, hahah Simon our E-guitarist stepped on the wrong pedal!! attempt to make us look mysterious
I know this post comes late but I really thank God for being part of the Anniversary Band this year! I remember the times when I really had to drag myself in between the rehearsals, the preparation for the violin exam, the workload in NIE ..I thank GOD that He brought me through. The long hours spent was certainly worth it!The one word to really describe the experience is, "BEAUTIFUL!" The presence of the Lord could be clearly felt throughout the hall as people were soaked in worshipping and praising God. The perspective I saw from when I was stationed on the stage was simply breathtaking! The balloons, the confetti, yes and all of you!!
Despite the previous day's rehearsals ending at 11:30pm and musios having to come early to do sound checks and rehearsals at 830am, the moment we went on stage and the song "Highest" came, sweet adoration just overflowed from my heart, all my tiredness, fatigue seemed to melt away and really dwell in the presence of the LORD!
We shared many jokes also, about the infamous "dry-ice machine" who would emit smoke every few minutes without warning, shrouding us in choking smoke, making us cough and wheeze always...a lot of near accidents happened! waahhaa.. Sijia noted during lunch that both our hands were trembling badly that we could not hold the spoonful of rice properly...we really played so much! :P we had only 45 minutes then to finish our lunch, change, do hair and makeup..You all should have seen the dressing and makeup room, it was WARFARE!! Shen Teng looked so "pretty" with gelled hair and blusher! :P
I would say this again, nothing beats playing together in a band who flows together and who really all have a heart burden to see people being drawn by the music to worship unto the LORD. I made many friends and certainly gained more experience in playing techniques and missing the times now that I think of it...:P I am so impressed with the youth singers and musios! Simon, the shredder E-guitarist is 17! Joanne, one of the lead worshippers is like only 23? Check out her voice here from this video clip from Junming's blog:
Think now, the song that is stuck in my head is the song written by our very own musio, David "Ah Seng" Chua who wrote "Greater"
"You must be Greater in me O Lord,
Let all the rest fade away
Draw me nearer to You each day
I yearn to fix my eyes on You.
I want to give You my everything
Just to walk with You by my side
My joy is complete in You
For You are my strength, my hope"
May the Lord always be my strength and my hope,
Be my Love, ........Always....:)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Personality Tests taken on a stressed up day! :P
| You Are 70% Extrovert, 30% Introvert |
 You are quite outgoing You are a social connector - you know a ton of people While you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talker A fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing |
| You Are Sunrise |
 You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be. |
You Are A Realistic Romantic |
You are more romantic than 70% of the population.  It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line! |
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Birthed into a new CG!
As of two weeks ago our CG birthed into another one I am now under the new group called NG6B3 under Poy...
I am a bit sad that we have to split after only one year by God's grace and missing also the lovable characters when we were under one big group..but I am excited about the opportunities that lay ahead for each and everyone of us.
There are certainly more chances to serve now that our group is so much smaller...left only me and Zhu zhu 2 gals lei...must bring in more gals...so poor thing the both of us faced with 5 very noisy guys!!
Was very encouraged when I heard Zhu zhu mentioned about Joe and Yicheng and Law leading praise and worship together and the joke on the song chosen by Joe "Cheww-yee-Chew-yeee, ooom bah bah!" Okay its "Therefore being Justified by Faith"
You see? smaller group means that each one of us do not depend on the others to work or to serve but it comes outta of our own comfort zone to pick ourselves up, bravely tell your CL..i wanna serve.
I wanna serve.
There are still so many areas that I can contribute to the group. Am excited on how its going to come out...I pray that I would be able to avail myself more to see our group mature and grow in numbers!
Shall start with a guitar lesson to teach my sheep...any more takers?
I propose Wednesdays and Tuesdays... if i dun have music prac hee..:)
I am a bit sad that we have to split after only one year by God's grace and missing also the lovable characters when we were under one big group..but I am excited about the opportunities that lay ahead for each and everyone of us.
There are certainly more chances to serve now that our group is so much smaller...left only me and Zhu zhu 2 gals lei...must bring in more gals...so poor thing the both of us faced with 5 very noisy guys!!
Was very encouraged when I heard Zhu zhu mentioned about Joe and Yicheng and Law leading praise and worship together and the joke on the song chosen by Joe "Cheww-yee-Chew-yeee, ooom bah bah!" Okay its "Therefore being Justified by Faith"
You see? smaller group means that each one of us do not depend on the others to work or to serve but it comes outta of our own comfort zone to pick ourselves up, bravely tell your CL..i wanna serve.
I wanna serve.
There are still so many areas that I can contribute to the group. Am excited on how its going to come out...I pray that I would be able to avail myself more to see our group mature and grow in numbers!
Shall start with a guitar lesson to teach my sheep...any more takers?
I propose Wednesdays and Tuesdays... if i dun have music prac hee..:)
Friday, September 08, 2006
Teacher's Day at NIE!
This year's Teacher's Day is spent on Friday at NIE itself. We had a Maths Lab Lesson and one of my classmates actually bought a cake to share to the whole class. Something special is that we are teachers celebrating for our teacher! Absolutely felt like a small kid again, we sang Happy Teacher's Day in the tune of Happy Birthday to our Maths Tutor, Mr Lee Ngan Hoe. He's a really funny guy and we all really love him.. CC see if you can spot your friend Kevin in the pic? :P
Made Mr Lee turn around to face us as we sing the song!
My QCM 501 class! :D
Made Mr Lee turn around to face us as we sing the song!
My QCM 501 class! :D
ONE dollar-one-dollar-one-dollar-ONE!!!
Yes, can you believe it? My dad was so mean that he actually made a huge joke outta me signing up for the Stan Chart run. Over an episode of "My lovely Samsoon" on TV, he could not stop laughing when I told him that I have plucked up the courage to sign up for a 10km run...
He immediately turned over to Ma and said,"I'll bet you ONE DOLLAR that she would NOT be able to run on Wednesday!" (After an enthu Rac rushed to declare to them that she's going to run come Wednesday after school!)
Indignant and possibly sheepish with my laughing parents, I made a stubborn decision in my mind to run no matter what. Come Wednesday, I finally finished my 3 Maths quizzes mini "Marathon" and my head is swimming from the lack of sleep and yes when you all see me this week, I have outbreaks all over! :P Maths is so tough!
It's such a drag that when I reached home yesterday at 630pm I had to pluck myself from the couch to start running. Put on my shoes and all of a sudden became super conscious. Made a huge mistake of not warming up and immediately started running round the neighbourhood...
This is the first time I ran round my estate can? Have moved in Sengkang for a good 7 years and i am still a stranger to my neighbourhood! That really tells me how long I have not walked around my house..Highly strung, I found it very hard to relax and enjoy the run, my mind still clogged with lotsa things...Wow the force of gravity has certainly worked even betta since the last time I ran, every step seemed so tough and heavy.:P
Okay managed a tiny little distance of 4 rounds around the estate. Estimated 2km?? wahahah and Joe said,"It's 1/5 of your total distance! Jia you!!"
Still recovering from aching limbs, am lousy right?
He immediately turned over to Ma and said,"I'll bet you ONE DOLLAR that she would NOT be able to run on Wednesday!" (After an enthu Rac rushed to declare to them that she's going to run come Wednesday after school!)
Indignant and possibly sheepish with my laughing parents, I made a stubborn decision in my mind to run no matter what. Come Wednesday, I finally finished my 3 Maths quizzes mini "Marathon" and my head is swimming from the lack of sleep and yes when you all see me this week, I have outbreaks all over! :P Maths is so tough!
It's such a drag that when I reached home yesterday at 630pm I had to pluck myself from the couch to start running. Put on my shoes and all of a sudden became super conscious. Made a huge mistake of not warming up and immediately started running round the neighbourhood...
This is the first time I ran round my estate can? Have moved in Sengkang for a good 7 years and i am still a stranger to my neighbourhood! That really tells me how long I have not walked around my house..Highly strung, I found it very hard to relax and enjoy the run, my mind still clogged with lotsa things...Wow the force of gravity has certainly worked even betta since the last time I ran, every step seemed so tough and heavy.:P
Okay managed a tiny little distance of 4 rounds around the estate. Estimated 2km?? wahahah and Joe said,"It's 1/5 of your total distance! Jia you!!"
Still recovering from aching limbs, am lousy right?
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Treading on dangerous ground...
Ever hear this line that's mentioned in movies? Expecially those swashbuckling movies where swords are welded, flashes from the clash of swords later and the two lead characters suddenly goes,
"Mister, you are treading on dangerous ground!"
This is what exactly I am feeling for the past few days. It's not about lack of faith, but I really tend to think I am living life on the edge from the things that I have been doing:
1)I signed up for Stan Chart 10km run!!
Yes, to those runners out there.. Miss Tham here has not run in a good number of years and the pounds are packing onto pretty obvious places. I dunno what went into my mind when I took the challenge and signed up for the run with my sheep Zhu Zhu.
Guess I was really motivated by all the CG members and CC mind you, signing up for the FULL MARATHON!They all did so well at the recent Army Half Marathon. wah..scary sia...in a matter of 13 weeks I have to run 10km? Time to get out of that couch and work out!! Good luck to my legs man...:P
2)There are 3 quizzes next week and 3 assignments due by the end of the month.
You guessed it. I really struggle to study for them and do the assignments. Last Friday, after the lecturer threw us a bomb of 3 more assignments. What went into my mind was "And a Happy Teacher's Day to you too!" wahahah satirical joke but I think I am getting really stressed out.So the current count for assignments are,
Maths, 3 written ones including a pedagogical presentation and a lesson plan, plus a research one to be done on educational websites for children.
English, one major presentaion involving a research into a certain genre of children's books and to teach the whole class on the topic.
Educational Psychology: 1 group assignment and 1 Individual assignment
ICT (computing for teaching): 1 1000-word assignment.
Total Assignment count => 7
3)I am surviving on cents that make up to dollars.
The violin exam is finally over, but I am living on what little my savings can allow me. Had spent a bomb on the preparation for this exam. It is much much more than last year as I am sitting for a higher grade now. Bills and loans have been very punctual in their arrivals. Am praying very hard for Pay Day! How far would you go for your dreams and aspirations? For me, its really all the way...:P
4)My health is suffering
There's something awfully wrong with my system somehow. I am getting more anxious, heartbeats are faster (Not particularly when I'm in close proximity to anyone special:p). My hands are trembing...the other day I was just holding on to a spoon to drink soup when I realised how much of the soup I am spilling... My hands are trembling so so much!!Outbreaks on the face are happening. Tempers are slightly shorter. Must be stress, definitely.
Lord Jesus, help me when I am so weak, when all things seem so hard to handle and when everything seems hopeless. Lord I claim Hebrews 6:19 when I cling on to the hope that it is an ANCHOR to my soul, firm and secure. I rest my security in You and nothing can ever take it away from me. Lord, may Your grace continue to cover me and I seek Your forgiveness when I lacked the trust in You and still chose to sway from Your path. Guide me, Lead me and heal me, I submit my life in Your hands! Amen!
"Mister, you are treading on dangerous ground!"
This is what exactly I am feeling for the past few days. It's not about lack of faith, but I really tend to think I am living life on the edge from the things that I have been doing:
1)I signed up for Stan Chart 10km run!!
Yes, to those runners out there.. Miss Tham here has not run in a good number of years and the pounds are packing onto pretty obvious places. I dunno what went into my mind when I took the challenge and signed up for the run with my sheep Zhu Zhu.
Guess I was really motivated by all the CG members and CC mind you, signing up for the FULL MARATHON!They all did so well at the recent Army Half Marathon. wah..scary sia...in a matter of 13 weeks I have to run 10km? Time to get out of that couch and work out!! Good luck to my legs man...:P
2)There are 3 quizzes next week and 3 assignments due by the end of the month.
You guessed it. I really struggle to study for them and do the assignments. Last Friday, after the lecturer threw us a bomb of 3 more assignments. What went into my mind was "And a Happy Teacher's Day to you too!" wahahah satirical joke but I think I am getting really stressed out.So the current count for assignments are,
Maths, 3 written ones including a pedagogical presentation and a lesson plan, plus a research one to be done on educational websites for children.
English, one major presentaion involving a research into a certain genre of children's books and to teach the whole class on the topic.
Educational Psychology: 1 group assignment and 1 Individual assignment
ICT (computing for teaching): 1 1000-word assignment.
Total Assignment count => 7
3)I am surviving on cents that make up to dollars.
The violin exam is finally over, but I am living on what little my savings can allow me. Had spent a bomb on the preparation for this exam. It is much much more than last year as I am sitting for a higher grade now. Bills and loans have been very punctual in their arrivals. Am praying very hard for Pay Day! How far would you go for your dreams and aspirations? For me, its really all the way...:P
4)My health is suffering
There's something awfully wrong with my system somehow. I am getting more anxious, heartbeats are faster (Not particularly when I'm in close proximity to anyone special:p). My hands are trembing...the other day I was just holding on to a spoon to drink soup when I realised how much of the soup I am spilling... My hands are trembling so so much!!Outbreaks on the face are happening. Tempers are slightly shorter. Must be stress, definitely.
Lord Jesus, help me when I am so weak, when all things seem so hard to handle and when everything seems hopeless. Lord I claim Hebrews 6:19 when I cling on to the hope that it is an ANCHOR to my soul, firm and secure. I rest my security in You and nothing can ever take it away from me. Lord, may Your grace continue to cover me and I seek Your forgiveness when I lacked the trust in You and still chose to sway from Your path. Guide me, Lead me and heal me, I submit my life in Your hands! Amen!
Friday, August 25, 2006
What happened on 9th August? a chronological rundown from midnight 00 00 hrs...:P
I know this comes in a bit late..but I really wanna thank all the well wishes of the people who sent me their sms and all their treats....Had actually kept all these sms-es in my phone...could not bear to delete them heee heee..aLSO to the Lord Almighty for creating me back in my mother's womb that I can see this beautiful world and all my friends...
At the stroke of midnight: Issac ("ah-chek", IZ)
12:10 am Caizhu:"Dear sis, Shen yat fa lok! May e Lord shine on u an thru u. B Blez. Cya."
Poy: "Happy blessed bday! Claim your present from Him, He has already given you His promises!"
12:11am Angela:"Yo racheal, Happy Bdae to u! May you be blessed w love, joy n peace in the days ahead...Hope u'll experience greater breakthru in your music, carrier n r/s...stay joyful always :)
12:14am
Shen Teng:"Happy birthday! :) Thanks for guiding me to play violin in wam. I am sure God will use u even more in the area of music as u avail yourself to serve more :)"
12:18am
Shi Ming:"Hi happy bithday! Today is the start of a brand new year for you!"
12:34am
Lawrence ("Gao de"):"I knock on Heaven door. God asks "Wat can I do 4 u?" I ask "Pls Love, Protect & Bless the One reading this sms" 1 yr older ya!"
12:35am
Lyndi:"God bless u on tis lovely day & as God fulfil His promise 4 ur life. I pray He'll snuggle u deep in His love and grace . :)"
12:46am
Yexiang:" Happy birthday Rac! :)"
1:16am
From a sweet young bro, Joe:"I thk our Father in heaven 4 such a bubbly sis in u. ur lively joyful character brings much life n excitm 2 our lives. certainly irreplacable :) it has been a blessg 2b able to embark on tis walk wu. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAC!!lets look 4ward 2 great things n experiences tt He has prepared 4us :Dhv a blessed dy in Him"
1:40am
Another sweet young bro, Jason: "Happy national day, I mean happy birthday to you."
4:38am
Our youngest brother in Christ ,Qiuping: "Happy Birthday Sis! Today, a beginning of a new day to rejoice in e LORD! Life in Christ may not be easy but remain perseverance, continually focus onto Him and His purpose in u. For He knows ur heart desire wholly & surely bless u wif more than u can imagine. Enjoy ur day wif Him! Amen!"
4:51am (These people dun sleep eh? wahahaha...)
Wilson:"Happy Bday! May e LORD our GREAT GOD bless u n may all ur wishes come true! Haf a blessed moment. :)"
8:45am
Spencer:"Hey happy b dae,man."
10:09am
Jiawei:"Hey happy birthday to u! Have a nice day today!"
10:29am
Jingjie (NJC friend):"Happy birthday!"
**Rac then takes a break to enjoy my first treat of the day, from two lovely sisters, Sarah and Jeannie who blessed me with a Hillsong songbook and a breakfast treat at Cafe Cartel, dear me blur la, went to the WRONG PLACE! had arrived at CITY Hall instead of PLAZA SING! Can imagine their exasperation! Thanks dear sweeties for putting up with my nonsense! So glad! Jammin'time!**
11:17am
Yuemei(my dear pri sch friend):"hapy birthday! cheers!"
12:48pm
Ah Zhen Ah yee:" :D Hai4 pi2 BIRTHDAY!"
**Rac takes another break to bring family to eat the Holland V XO bee hoon! Slurp Slurp! so full yeah?**
13 14h
Rachel Tan:"Enjoy the day as the nation celebrates with you! happy birtday!!"
13 37h
Rachael Lee:"Happy & Blessed Birthday!May u enjoy another yr of God's blessings! Luv, Rach"
13 45h
Zhiyong:"Happy national day and happy birthday! - Zhiyong :)"
13 47h
John (CJC - Lao ge):"Hey happy birthday 2 u xiaomei! May the Lord bless u and take care. Enjoy urself ya. =)"
14 11h
Karen:"Happy birthday sis! May u be blessed with much more in life! How's celebration gonna be like for u? Enjoy ur special day!"
14 41h
Kim: "Happy Birthday"
15 24h
Jiajun:"Hey babe! Blessed birthday! May e Lord bless this day n year to come.:)"
16 07h
Fenny:"HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)"
16 25h
Ziwei (NTU CEE Buddy):"Hi Rachel. Happy birthday to you! :D"
16 38h
Mingyang:"Happy birthday!"
17 15h
Guang An:" Happy birthday sis. Hope you like the songbook."
**Rac now stuffed to the brim (this is so not doing any good to my thick waistline), rushed down to ah Cheng's place at River Valley for CG...Received a hippo from Mingzhu!**
17 52h
Nizam (NTU CEE Buddy):"my apologies if i'm late, but here's wishing you happy birthday and happy national day!may you have a wonderful year ahead! :)"
**Rac now rushed down to prolly the finaly gathering for the day, of all my old NJC classmates at Serangoon, Wenli's place...**
20 15h
Guang Rong (UL):"As we celebrate National Day, may u also hav a wonderful, memorable and blessed birthday.:)"
21 42h
Pamela:"Happy Birthday once again gal!"
22 06h
Cheng Jie:"before the day is over...happy birthday rachel! hope ya had a memorable 27th hatchday! take care n god bless, as always! ;)"
22 23h
Chukai:"Happy birthday rachel! happy 41st..opps I mean 27th birthday. The Lord bless the year ahead and may he add to you even greater opportunities ahead."
22 30h
Limin:"Hey babe, happy bdae! Stay pretty & cool k."
22 50h
Florence Neo:"Happy birthday Rachel. Just in timeo to wish you.:) May you remain beautiful for God. May your dreams come true. Be strong and courageous for God always - flo"
10/08/06
0900h
Aunt Jo:" Happy belated birthday!"
My apologies to anyone if I have missed out their names in any way..shall blog about my birthday wishes another time!
At the stroke of midnight: Issac ("ah-chek", IZ)
12:10 am Caizhu:"Dear sis, Shen yat fa lok! May e Lord shine on u an thru u. B Blez. Cya."
Poy: "Happy blessed bday! Claim your present from Him, He has already given you His promises!"
12:11am Angela:"Yo racheal, Happy Bdae to u! May you be blessed w love, joy n peace in the days ahead...Hope u'll experience greater breakthru in your music, carrier n r/s...stay joyful always :)
12:14am
Shen Teng:"Happy birthday! :) Thanks for guiding me to play violin in wam. I am sure God will use u even more in the area of music as u avail yourself to serve more :)"
12:18am
Shi Ming:"Hi happy bithday! Today is the start of a brand new year for you!"
12:34am
Lawrence ("Gao de"):"I knock on Heaven door. God asks "Wat can I do 4 u?" I ask "Pls Love, Protect & Bless the One reading this sms" 1 yr older ya!"
12:35am
Lyndi:"God bless u on tis lovely day & as God fulfil His promise 4 ur life. I pray He'll snuggle u deep in His love and grace . :)"
12:46am
Yexiang:" Happy birthday Rac! :)"
1:16am
From a sweet young bro, Joe:"I thk our Father in heaven 4 such a bubbly sis in u. ur lively joyful character brings much life n excitm 2 our lives. certainly irreplacable :) it has been a blessg 2b able to embark on tis walk wu. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAC!!lets look 4ward 2 great things n experiences tt He has prepared 4us :Dhv a blessed dy in Him"
1:40am
Another sweet young bro, Jason: "Happy national day, I mean happy birthday to you."
4:38am
Our youngest brother in Christ ,Qiuping: "Happy Birthday Sis! Today, a beginning of a new day to rejoice in e LORD! Life in Christ may not be easy but remain perseverance, continually focus onto Him and His purpose in u. For He knows ur heart desire wholly & surely bless u wif more than u can imagine. Enjoy ur day wif Him! Amen!"
4:51am (These people dun sleep eh? wahahaha...)
Wilson:"Happy Bday! May e LORD our GREAT GOD bless u n may all ur wishes come true! Haf a blessed moment. :)"
8:45am
Spencer:"Hey happy b dae,man."
10:09am
Jiawei:"Hey happy birthday to u! Have a nice day today!"
10:29am
Jingjie (NJC friend):"Happy birthday!"
**Rac then takes a break to enjoy my first treat of the day, from two lovely sisters, Sarah and Jeannie who blessed me with a Hillsong songbook and a breakfast treat at Cafe Cartel, dear me blur la, went to the WRONG PLACE! had arrived at CITY Hall instead of PLAZA SING! Can imagine their exasperation! Thanks dear sweeties for putting up with my nonsense! So glad! Jammin'time!**
11:17am
Yuemei(my dear pri sch friend):"hapy birthday! cheers!"
12:48pm
Ah Zhen Ah yee:" :D Hai4 pi2 BIRTHDAY!"
**Rac takes another break to bring family to eat the Holland V XO bee hoon! Slurp Slurp! so full yeah?**
13 14h
Rachel Tan:"Enjoy the day as the nation celebrates with you! happy birtday!!"
13 37h
Rachael Lee:"Happy & Blessed Birthday!May u enjoy another yr of God's blessings! Luv, Rach"
13 45h
Zhiyong:"Happy national day and happy birthday! - Zhiyong :)"
13 47h
John (CJC - Lao ge):"Hey happy birthday 2 u xiaomei! May the Lord bless u and take care. Enjoy urself ya. =)"
14 11h
Karen:"Happy birthday sis! May u be blessed with much more in life! How's celebration gonna be like for u? Enjoy ur special day!"
14 41h
Kim: "Happy Birthday"
15 24h
Jiajun:"Hey babe! Blessed birthday! May e Lord bless this day n year to come.:)"
16 07h
Fenny:"HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)"
16 25h
Ziwei (NTU CEE Buddy):"Hi Rachel. Happy birthday to you! :D"
16 38h
Mingyang:"Happy birthday!"
17 15h
Guang An:" Happy birthday sis. Hope you like the songbook."
**Rac now stuffed to the brim (this is so not doing any good to my thick waistline), rushed down to ah Cheng's place at River Valley for CG...Received a hippo from Mingzhu!**
17 52h
Nizam (NTU CEE Buddy):"my apologies if i'm late, but here's wishing you happy birthday and happy national day!may you have a wonderful year ahead! :)"
**Rac now rushed down to prolly the finaly gathering for the day, of all my old NJC classmates at Serangoon, Wenli's place...**
20 15h
Guang Rong (UL):"As we celebrate National Day, may u also hav a wonderful, memorable and blessed birthday.:)"
21 42h
Pamela:"Happy Birthday once again gal!"
22 06h
Cheng Jie:"before the day is over...happy birthday rachel! hope ya had a memorable 27th hatchday! take care n god bless, as always! ;)"
22 23h
Chukai:"Happy birthday rachel! happy 41st..opps I mean 27th birthday. The Lord bless the year ahead and may he add to you even greater opportunities ahead."
22 30h
Limin:"Hey babe, happy bdae! Stay pretty & cool k."
22 50h
Florence Neo:"Happy birthday Rachel. Just in timeo to wish you.:) May you remain beautiful for God. May your dreams come true. Be strong and courageous for God always - flo"
10/08/06
0900h
Aunt Jo:" Happy belated birthday!"
My apologies to anyone if I have missed out their names in any way..shall blog about my birthday wishes another time!
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